Carson Beau Barbuto
January 25, 2023 – April 13, 2023
Carson Beau Barbuto passed away on April 13, 2023, at the age of 11 weeks old. A visitation will be held for Carson in the chapel of Frederick-Dean Funeral Home on Thursday, April 20, 2023, at 3:00 p.m. CT. A funeral service will follow in the chapel at 4:00 p.m. CT with Dr. Tommy Wilson officiating.
Carson is survived by his loving parents, Vincent and Nahyun Barbuto; sisters, Emory, and Kennedy Barbuto; and many loving nieces, nephews, cousins, friends, and other family members.
Although his life was far too short, he touched the lives of many. He will be remembered by his warmth and smiles and will forever be treasured in the hearts of those who knew him.
Matthew 19:14
Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”
From Mommy
It’s April 14, 2023 at 1:04pm and I’m in bed sobbing writing this to talk about how incredibly perfect you are, my son. And how wonderful you made our lives. You were just smiling so big for me and for your sisters. We had a good day and you went down for a nap but you didn’t wake up- every mother’s worst nightmare. Daddy did everything in his power to get you to wake up. You passed away last night at the East Alabama hospital. When the doctor came in to tell us you didn’t make it, I felt like I had died and I still feel like I am dying. I will forever feel like a part of me is dead.
Losing you is the hardest thing I have ever experienced and the greatest pain I will ever have to endure.
You made everyone around you smile so big and feel so warm at just how cuddly, cute, and chunky you were. You had a head full of hair, the most handsomest face, and the most darling dimples anyone could ever have.
I never in a million years would’ve thought mommy and daddy would have to experience this tragedy of losing their child. We keep thinking to ourselves what could we have done to prevent this? Why was mommy not there for you? Why couldn’t we just hold you and everything be okay?
You completed me as a mommy. You completed us as a family. Your two older sisters Emory and Kennedy were obsessed with you. They smiled and giggled every single second they were around you because you were just that perfect. Your old sister Emory keeps asking me about you and where you are. And I tell her that you’re in heaven.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much I love you forever and always my sweet boy. You brought so much joy into my heart, your daddy’s, your two sisters’s, and everyone else around you.
You were and are SO loved. I can’t stop seeing your beautiful big smile every time I close my eyes. I can’t stop hearing your coo’s, your little noises, your sweetest cries in my head.
I still cannot believe you’re not here. I still hear your cries and when I walk over to your room, it’s empty. You’re not here anymore. This all feels like a nightmare that I just want to wake up from so badly. There’s no pain that compares to the pain I am feeling since I lost you. I just want to hold you in my arms, snuggle you, kiss you, and make everything okay.
I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be there for you and I will live the rest of my life thinking about you and loving you. And how I could have done more and been better for you.
You are one of the best things that’s ever happened to me and to us, Carson. I will never understand why Jesus took you from us so soon and I will never understand why this world is so cruel. But one thing I do know is that we will meet you in heaven one day and be reunited.
We all love you so so so much and will miss you forever and ever, our sweet baby.
Love,
Mommy
My Son
My son, Carson Beau Barbuto. I stand here today wishing I had the strength to give this speech to all our friends and family. But I am in pieces. So here I will share what I am feeling and wishing I could give and do so much more.
You gave me something I could never imagine ever having after your three older sisters. That was my first son. You are your Mom and Dad’s special little boy. I say ARE because I know you are and still will always be here for us, looking over us.
From the moment you were born, you brightened our lives and completed the family your beautiful mother and I was trying to build for you and your sisters. Thank you so much for coming into our lives for the short time you were with us physically, my son.
Your mom says God needed you more and wanted to protect you from something. I believe it, my son. You are the sweetest boy that I have ever seen. You lit up the room wherever you were. I know you are a little angel now, and I know you are doing amazing things for God.
From birth, you faced adversity and overcame so much. Lord knows I wish I could take your spot because I wish you could be here for your sisters and mother, who love you so much. You are so loved, my son, you completed our family and will always be with us no matter where life brings us.
I constantly wonder why God took you from us and why he believes in our family so much to overcome this. Some days I feel so defeated that I will never feel happiness again. I feel selfish to smile and laugh, knowing you’re gone. But I know that’s not what you want, but I miss you so much, my son. I don’t know if it was because you are too pure for this cold, selfish world we live in, but I wish I could have you back so much.
You will always be my son, and I loved you so much; how your sisters looked at you and loved you so much made my heart full. Even though this is goodbye, it isn’t forever. I will see you again one day, my handsome son, and we will be together in heaven and never have to worry about anything but loving one another.
Daddy loves you, my sweet boy. Until we see each other again, you will always be with me, your mother, sisters, family, and friends. I promise to be strong for your mom and sisters and give them the best life I can in this lifetime. I love you, bubby, forever and ever.
Love,
Your Father